Speaking in Confidence

At work I’ve been accepted into a leadership program and tonight there was a welcome dinner and kick-off. I went, I chatted, I recognized that it was important for me to be present and I was. And then later I spent some time looking at the social anxiety disorder page on webmd.  It’s safe to…

Friday Night

It’s Friday night and I’m not doing anything. And I’m okay with that. It’s been a long week. The two-year-old had a sick day, all the children stayed up way too late for fireworks, the six-year-old pushed boundaries at camp and got written up, I worked extra, my Mike finished up his last week at…

Unrequired Reading

I signed up for a class this coming fall, got overly excited, ran to the library, and checked out a stack of books. Will they remain unread and collecting dust on the table by my bed? NO, I say! No! I will read them! (This time.) I will take notes! (Like I always mean to.)…

The Definition of Insanity 

I’ve done it again. I stayed up way later than I should have and I can’t blame it on the holiday today. I was tired from staying up late last night though, so instead of doing the things I wanted to stay up to do, I just sat on the couch and watched a lot…

July 4

Her I sit, with a sleeping–finally sleeping–toddler on my lap, quietly watching fireworks and a small plane that’s circling the valley. The boys and their dad have gone to find a better view and now that the little girl has gone to sleep, it’s kind of nice here. Quiet, in a way. I see the…

Disconnection

Today I had a two-year-old who wasn’t feeling great. We had some fun, but her nap was shorter than usual and she spent a lot of time just wanting me to hold her and/or carry her around. She was also emotionally volatile. I mean, all two-year-olds are, but she was a little more volatile than…

Catching Up

I think I’ve settled on a goal of finishing up a masters in English. I started down that path almost nine years ago, flailed, and bailed. I wasn’t quite ready then, but I think I’m ready now. Of course, I’m plagued by the notion that maybe the flailing and bailing that I did was because,…